to perish
after half a year of treatment
my psychiatrist says
the primal fear has paused its preying on you
i repeat the sentence many times
the ps and rs
pop and roll
in my head
the intrusive thoughts
are calming down,
they no longer create any static
in my chest and stomach
i do everything
that they proposed during my therapies,
which were injected with
diluted eastern philosophy
i gain weight,
but at least i can blame it on the medication,
which i would gladly gulp down mountains of
and become gargantua
anything so my soul and body never part again