Reading of silence

Old again, you retreat to the spaces
that you truly belong to.
Slow steps hide the satisfaction of surrender –
known only to such people.
Under the high walls of your empty room
the first thing to hear is your own sigh.
Equally it also indicates the expression of tiredness and escape.
Confronted with the burden of the silence,
then, you’ll gently cover your head –
to deceive yourself that you are outside
lost time. That is something you’ll do
quite consciously and not quite persistently.
Gaping into the whiteness, for some time you’ll think
about women that you didn’t want to have.
During the night your being will be imbued
with different sensations – indifference,
tendency to customary, inconsistent insolence.
All that will happen in a kind of a half dream.
In search for a desolate life.