From her early age she had created and thought about the idea of death, which she would constantly carry within, and thus make it into the biggest cause for all misfortunes. In Freud’s Reader, in the part dedicated to hysteria, it is mentioned that body is a map of spiritual pain, but also the root of the hysterical pain is the idea. I am not hurt by what I think. I become what I think. My body starts to look like my thought. If my thought is painful, my body becomes that – (Котеска, 2013: 106). She is afraid for her father, she does not want to lose him, she has to keep him in something. Therefore, she did not want to get rid of her dysfunctional leg for a long time. Until she found a replacement – a leg prosthetics. She found a different replacement – Diego instead of her father. The catalyst for her replacement were the red boots from calf skin, almost identical to the ones her father had given her when she was a child. Guillermo would never leave her alone, that is why she always wanted Diego by her side.
The initial idea to paint is because it was necessary to make money, and that was the only thing that she knew how to work (from her father). Later, she could relate to the need and desire to identify with Diego, and therefore she would start many love affairs. Freud introduced the idea of the Other as essential to determine the identity of the subject. The subject is aware that he is dependent from the other, and the idea of morality has been developed because of this dependence… the root of any identification is sexual, and the monstrosity of this operation also has a real value, apart from the symbolic one. When I start to occupy the transitory place towards you, I slowly also take over your sensory apparatus and I try to see what you are seeing, and I start the life that you are living, and I start to wish what you wish… (Котеска, 2013: 607). It is known that Frida joined communism and its movement because of Diego, who was a great admirer of that ideology. Later, when Diego was kicked out, she also left communism. When Natalia, Trotsky’s wife, caught them together with Trotsky, she felt no guilt and she replied her that it was only sex, as Diego used to reply when she would find him with other women.
When analysis the character of Frida, one should mention her selfishness, when it came to love and attention. Since she had been a child, she would prove herself before her father to gain his attention and love, unlike her sisters. Later, she would also her sister’s sacrifice (even before she cheated with Diego) to take care and constantly be with her. During the whole novel, she tried to have all love and attention be directed to her. She did not act superiorly only with respect to Diego, but also towards the others when they were near her, and the biggest sacrifice was her sister. And still those were feelings, she was never satisfied with feelings or attention anyway – by nobody, never. At the same time, she imagined that she was the one giving. What an illusion of the person who screamed all the time, with her clothes, paintings, face, only to turn attention to herself, herself, herself (Дракулиќ, 2004: 103).